if my next entry is about him, someone please kill me

So he said no.

I don't really have anything in particular to say about that, other than it sucks, I'm upset, and I don't want to go anymore.

And I refuse to cry about this because that is really overreacting and completely irrational. I refuse to let one guy have so much control over how I feel, whether he knows it or not.

That last sentence was total bullshit.

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Sucks for me.

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Why can't I just stop liking him? Why can't I just realize and understand he doesn't like me like that and let him go?

Because I have hope.

I don't think its neccesarily a good thing to have hope in this situation-a situation that screams "give up hope already, you idiot".

That's all for now.

He doesn't know how good he can have it...

(2003-03-06 - 11:56 p.m.)